Coming out of the Psychic Closet With Lea Morgan

Coming out of the Psychic Closet

Author: Lea Morgan | VISIT WEBSITE

“Midlife: When the Universe grabs your shoulders and tells you “I’m not f-ing around, use the gifts you were given.” – Brene Brown

I’ve historically worked in advertising and interior design. Both are professional arenas that most people find fascinating and want to know about — the workplaces of characters in movies and television shows. Pop culture is powerful.

Both have provided me with their share of amazing opportunities and non-traditional workplace shenanigans. They both fulfill something authentic in me. They have been places where I’m surrounded by creativity, humor and the ability to study and discuss human behavior.

I am grateful for all of it. It has allowed me to participate in an office culture that fits me. But, I always knew there was something I could do that spoke more from my heart and provided more service to others.

Now, here I am in midlife, putting it all out there — that I can communicate with dead people and sense things about people that are unknown to most. Yeah, I’m a Psychic Medium.

Well, this is different.

And, for the first time in my life, there are unpredictable responses from others. This ability doesn’t exist in the realm of popular culture like I’m used to. It exists in the realm of personal beliefs and that hits a lot closer to home.

I’ve had varied reactions:

Some people knew already that this was something I could do and are so glad I’m finally putting it out there.

Some people knew and are supportive but still can’t wrap their minds around the possibility.

Some people had no idea but are not at all surprised.

Some people have started crying.

Some people have told me it freaks them out and they’d rather not talk about it.

Some people have warned me that others could find it against their religious beliefs and therefore respond to me negatively.

Some people get a look of concern on their faces as they consider that perhaps I can read their thoughts.

Some people sincerely are not at all interested.

“Vulnerability is about showing up and being seen. It’s tough to do that when we’re terrified about what people might see or think.” – Brene Brown

Brene Brown has been in my awareness a lot lately. Her words seem to speak to what I’m experiencing. I’ve made some changes in the face of the fear of what others might think and it hasn’t been effortless. It is scary. I am used to people liking, understanding and being interested in what I’m doing for work.

I needed to get to a place where the denial of my gifts was more unacceptable than the possible reactions of others. I needed to find myself so rewarded by the joy I found I could bring to others that I couldn’t imagine not having it in my life. I needed to want to make a difference more than I wanted to ‘manage’ my image. I needed to want to follow my path more than I wanted to make money.

It hasn’t been about choosing it once and then getting on with it. I find myself having to choose it over and over when my confidence wanes. I remind myself that I refuse to be one of those people I read about with deathbed regrets about what they didn’t do. It’s just not an option for me.

I can tell you that I don’t rationally understand these abilities any more than most people. If it wasn’t happening directly to me I don’t know what I would think or feel about it. Every single reading is an entirely faith-based operation and challenges me often. But, when I am giving someone messages or information that provides them with relief, or joy or hope… there is nothing I have ever experienced that is so gratifying and on purpose.

I can also tell you that I don’t go around in my everyday routines constantly seeing and speaking to Spirit. It mainly occurs during rote activities when my mind is on autopilot or when I’m sitting down with another person to provide them with a reading. I don’t poke around in anyone’s energy or information unless they request it. It would be like going into your house and looking through your drawers when you’re not home.

When I think of how this all might seem, I remember talking to my guidance counselor in college about my decision to pursue a job in advertising. I was told, since it was 1991 and a horrible financial market, it was very unlikely I would find a job and it would be best if I would consider another profession. Guess what? I did find a job…again, and again, and again — for 25 years. So, I guess some form of knowing myself was with me then and I know it’s with me now. I choose to keep listening to myself and letting everything else be what it will because this is what I want most: to use my gifts, to be of service and to be vulnerable in order to really live this ride.